To live in the world

To live in this world ,it's not whether you re sad or happy.Not as simple as when you're sad,you need comfort ,when you're happy you share with people you love.Everything you say affects in some way.I have grown up to be stubborn and insistent of what I believe in myself.thats how I believe.if its wrong ,show me and not take me by your threats and scolding.I m human,I have my limits as a person.

Everyone expects something from me,Do they understand my feelings or who I am,what I am I inside actually.My sad thoughts ,my happy anticipation ,my grieve over loss, the pressure that can kill.

 you say something right,others will reach out to help you.Do they see that I don't like that burden.Then I'm said to be ungrateful.All they do is force their feelings.When I say that,it seems that I'm too attached to this blog.But can everything be measured by right and wrong.

I'm human,no perfection.So much imperfection that I can only strive for the right direction.Sadden by the reality that my closest tend to pretend to make reality such that it becomes fantasy.Is not as though I don't appreciate people's efforts that why I endure and move to this path.Do they see that I'm walking a slower pace.

Submerged in a lost world.Theres little light.Beneath the path is an escape route that is filled with darkness and grieve that only I can walk out.

What to say?

Could you answer that? I could change that face and put the same question? Because of that expression ? 

Mangaka

Thanks to artist Matsuri Hino for the best story.Kouchi Kaede for Love So Life.Thanks for Black Bird creator Sakurakoji Kanoko,Kaichou-wa Maid Sama  creator Fujiwara Hiro ,Kuroshitsuji creator 

Yana-San 

Akatsuki Kaori who created Hakuoki,creator of Uragiri Odagiri Hotaru ,Yumeiro Patisserie creator Matsumoto Natsumi.Kamisama Hajimemashita creator Suzuki Julietta ,Special A creator Minami Maki ,Earl and Fairy creator Tani Mizue ,Amnesia creator  Touko Machida,Pantasia creator Hashiguchi Takashi.many more to thank...

My strong and beautiful

I will not hesitate if you ask,even if you betray me.Your grey world.A new light.One you never saw.Your aura,it colours mine with radiance.Your beautiful physique encased in a glass coffin.Hope your thirst is quenched with a new life.What I can only say is I Love You strong and beautiful Kaname.

Credit to Group of scanlators of mangareader for bringing this to me.I appreciate it.Will add every volume to my collection.

Thanks mangaka Matsuri Hino

My Beautiful Creature

My heart knew it was such ending.Forever couldn't exists.But your presence is like the beautiful autumn.I love you Kaname.Thanks for you.Your are the hero with such gentleness and chivalry.My knight.

Happy Teacher's Day

Sang we will rock you.Fit into a lion mascot.Gave my little brother a name stamp.Receive my first teacher's day presents.

I need the cut.

To commerate

new beginnings and rid of that extra back hair.

Taiwan

Had five days of sightseeing and shopping.Bought a lot of food,a few shirts and a jacket and anime merchandise.Of course,Hakuoki merchandise and Vampire Knight phonesticker.Had a custom made name stamp,key chains and a prize won from the arcade machine.Hahaha,the first.People in Taiwan are marvellous.Candid,humble and natural.Love their roads especially in the mountains.Backlanes were full of special shops.Lots of dogs and cats loitering and shopping with their owners.7Eleven there were stocked with so many types of drinks,ChocoLatte,Taiwan beer,Fruit milks,you name it.Oden,pau,tea eggs,bento sets,microwave packed food.Onigiri,soft boiled eggs.....etc.So many mango shaved ice and stinky tofu.Oh lord,took a bite and threw out.Pigs blood was smooth and nice.Went Jiufen,Pingxi,Yehliu,Tamsui,Shihlin,Rouhe night market,Huaxi,All around Ximending for five days.Took trains,taxi mostly.Their mrt standard ticket is actually a chip that resembles those used in casinos.Tamsui was beautiful with many interesting stalls selling interesting food ,souveneir and bike as well scooter rental which you don't need to posses a license.Cycling in Bali island and taking a trip to the temple.Many interesting fruit and fried squid,grilled conch and snails.Preserved plums,anchovy soaked in chilli.Bought a bottle of millet wine from Jiufen.Their white gourd juice with honey tasted like watermelon juice howeve it was refreshing.Anyway,social aspect.Can see many couples loitering around like its a weekend.The nightlife never ends.Along the way in Huaxi Night market,we witnessed many older man there.What I can presume is that that area is popular with the tourists but also due to sales of pornographic videos which was so openly sold.Beatlenuts ladies along the way were dressed do sexily.Apparently,the fan looking LED lights indicates that a beetlenut stall is there.Mostly undergrads and high school students who want to earn fees and extra keep.Rainbow hotel that we stayed served porridge which dishes tasted local to ours.Toast and hot beverages 

like tea and coffee.Juices.Service was an eight out of ten.Be sure to check out thei street foods such as onion pancake,stuffed rice,sausages.Filled with preserved radish and salted vegetables,glutinous rice and sausage.When on a trip,you can choose to bring the easy pay card or apply for a youth traveller card to enjoy discounts and make payment for mrt ,bus ,and ticketing.Be sure to ask for price before you buy something or else it'll end up a cut throat.Prepare umbrella or ponchos.Swimming attire if visiting a hot spring and try to avoid peak hours. 

Voice Actors

No doubt,I think one of the best voice actors is Daisuke Kishio.My favorite character Kuran Kaname is voiced by Daisuke Kishio as well as Kaito from Mermaid Melody and Kurama from Kamisama Hajimemashita. Next,Mamoru Miyano.His expressions through voice is wonderful.Of course ,he voiced Kiryuu Zero from Vampire Knight.Jun Fukuyama who voiced Takishima Kei from Special A .Last but not the least,Takahiro Sakurai who voiced Luka Crosszeria in Uraboku.The character that he vocies are mostly what they call handsome character.Another example is Yu Kanda from DGrayman,Cloud Strife from final fantasy.

Salute them.

Growing up years

Each time I look through those photos,I realize more things.Is as though,I was there and those emotions run through me like a train passing by the autumn scented trees.

I begun evaluating myself whether the current situation matches our future.Yes,my attitude is sometimes the worse but I did it because I am myself.I hate people pretending to and I hate that implemented in my actions because the world I believe in is still filled with truth.Darkness is hidden in everyone and it only takes the most precious things we hold on to.Betrayal,Jealousy,Danger and Hypocrisy.It all thought us many lessons.Many for too much.

Innocence and Ignorance only bring nothing but fantasy.Trust and Hope brings nothing but kindness which can cause others to be hurt sometimes.

They what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.But to be stronger,you have to suffer.

Those who are unnaturally calm tends to find temporary misery to fill the void in their hearts.

Those who perish forever gives others another lease of life called sacrifice.

They call humans weird and can't be phatomed.

But funny,each time we look at something or someone dear,we forget the world.Then we name it relieve and sometimes cure.

However nothing last forever ,those memories,those items we hold on to,people we cherish,people we love so much,sufferings.Those will cease to exists or else be forgotten one day.

However with fate,they might come alive once more.

Fan

I'm a big big fan of Vampire Knight and Hakuoki,Kamisama Hajimemashita.

I'm fan of Kaichou Wa Maid Sama,Special A,Uraboku,Bokura Ga Ita,Amnesia,Kirarin Revolution,Yumeiro Patisserie,Pantasia or otherwise called Yakitate! Japan,Earl and Fairy and the recent Q10 Jdrama .

My favorites are Kuran Kaname,Tomoe,Saito Hajime,Hijikata Toshizo,Okita Souji,Aidou,Zero Kiryuu.