Life down the road

Little cloud aged 17 , a mere female student studying in a high expectation school , living a life of innocent pleasures and enjoying herself while others are working their fingers off, loves to blame herself , never been able to find out the problem at all, getting an average of 60 percent for Biology paper, 57 percent for Chemistry , 40 percent for sympathy for Physics , 60 percent out of another ''lucky'' chance for Additional Mathematics , a mere 73 percent for Bahasa Malaysia , a PATHETIC 83 percent for English and a lucky 90 percent for History .I am dying....I want to make myself work hard but i am lying every second to myself .....Leading a life of an almost Secondary school graduate in 8 months with no big deal of myself .....All I hear from myself everyday is tiredness , fatigue , laziness that infest my entire life.....Shut Up , will you stp before you system crashes , will you behave well and study like PMR , NOT LIKE IT BUT BETTER ! yOU ARE REAL pISSED OFF PERSON BECAUSE OF your behaviour ! shut up and please dont lie to yourself anymore .....you are not writing an essay.....will you stop writing .....I want to leave the SPM room with no regrets ! I WANT TO LEAVE THE SPM EXAMINATION ROOM WITH NO REGRET !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!BUCK UP !BUCK UP ! YOU ARE SEVENTEEN NOT SEVEN ANYMORE ! SHUT UP AND STUDY YOUR BOOK NOT FACEBOOK !SOMEONE TAUGHT ME THAT !

Holidays and updates

Hi BLOG ! It's been quite sometime isn't it.Well . i don't know why but i've been quite quite relaxed this few weeks , probably the rip to Jakarta cheered me up somehow.Well , everything seems to be different now. Results in school, not up to standard , life at home sometimes or all the time , pampered .i think that i am a different person know cause along this 3 years , the things that i have learnt are WOW-ER THAN WOW ...yes..sorry for the language back there .I really learnt a lot....when i say a lot it means a lot...it's been hard trying to live up to a certain standard and requires a lot of patience and peseverance . But I believe in myself .....i will give my all towards it and never look back cause i gave my all entirely...a lot people might not know this but in actual I actually someone really gets annoyed easily .....How I wish someone understands ....I don't like to leave a bad impression but seriously i always have high expectations from myself which I know that i can't live with it .Everyday , waking up for the past 10 years ....going to school.......my god ....i remind myself that being a student isn't hard but it isn't easy at all....i feel like leaving school immediately....i mean in actual .....i feel not prepared cause i still feel like i'm not matured to handle real things yet but that is just an act of immaturity i guess....you have got to face the world one day .....how long can you wait ? 10 years , 15 years or 20 years later ....come on you are not that young anymore ......you've got a long way ahead of you and you are still young and healthier than most older people .....you must have the drive .....the drive to pursue what you like ......God gave you an extraordinary life where you face death so close .....you've got to cherish it and prove your worth....i will be cheering you on !!!!!! I WON'T LET GO EVEN A SECOND BECAUSE SPM 2010 .i will prove my worth to you ! cheer.................Dont forget to study

I gave my all

In certain times , i do feel sad because at that time i didn't follow my heart . I made decision based on what i think is right . I wasn't sincere at all.I am a person that believes that when you do somthing you must give your all and most importantly do it with a sincere heart . But at certain circumstances , i can't make good decisions . I know in my heart that i am not a dumb person but most of the time i just can't concentrate because of distractions . I know the direction but i didn't take it . But then i realised something , God gave me the best he can , I know he did and i know that he is something i believe in and worship with my heart because he is my GUIDE and without him I am nothing . I hope that i can help him make this world a better place where people value what he has done and what he had done for our ancestors .I know that my sins kept me further from him but i know that in my heart , he will never be too far . I am sorry that sometimes or most of the time I did wrong things ! But i pledge to try my best and give him the best help I can to help this world and May we be with peace ! Thanks everyone and most importantly GOD !

Scared ...... petrified

I am really really afraid that i will drop class .....it's the only thing that caused my eye's nerve to break down during the exam period .....i seriously hope thata i won't end up there .....please GOD ...I AM BEGGING you for your blessings.....please god ....help me .....help me.............

Here's something to share

Life goes on,
Even though i couldn't pass my add math ,
For the 3rd time ,
But i told myself never to give up ,
Try harder ,
I walking towards a lamp post,
I got a wake up call,
Why?
CAUSE i didn't focus enough to not hit the lamp post ,
Life is like that ,
When you don't focus ,
You will never see what's i,
n front of you ,
The best thing ,
Life is short ,
You won't need to use so much patience ,
and QUALITY is what i seek ,
Not the length ,
I would rather eat the chocolate ,
than to just not eat and not put on the weight ,
No regrets ,
A truth and reality in my life encyclopedia ,
Never regret ,
just do it!
Never turn back ,
Is my principle ,
Just use your heart in everything,
No problems in the world ,
will be the wall that separates ,
you and your problems.

Salute to the guy in Singapore who got 7 a's in his A level

I really salute you for being such a great person . All that you have done to get that results is already such a great thing moreover you have done it going through all obstacles . You really my admirance to what you have done . Let me quote what you say that is what i absolutely sincerely agree on " Do your best and leave the room with no regrets ". And i feel that it is really painful to lose someone you are really bonded to . My condolences !

Solution to a problem

Realise that reality is always not in front of our eyes . We must must learn to discover reality to mature and think rationally . Sometimes that truth is not what we can accept , that is a challenge to neutralise the problem we face accepting the truth .