Sickening

Sick ! SICK ! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ! i cant reason out , if you were alright with everything , i would have done the same .... why do you want to control situations and manipulate according to your ways .. my own parents dont irritate me ....why must you ? i hate it.... everyone cant be at your level....if you are always protecting yourself and not care about what people think....what is challenges ? what is the meaning of nothing is irreplacable ? what is freedom ?what does it mean that everyone has their own way of dealing things ?

Good or bad

To a certain extent,there are many things that i have to make my decisions to let no one get hurt . People give me choices , i make decisions . I can just do it my way , if you get hurt , i am hurt even more . I cant stand looking at them suffer because i did it my way . I have to make some decisions that you dont like but at last we will find peace in that deicisions because i bravely made my stand . These are reality of life , i get stressed up when i think of them getting hurt . If you would think for me and we suffer together , we might even become closer . Very complicated in all but we make each day something great to be accomplished. My teacher once mention to us that i remembered till today thought it didnt happen too long ago was life was about making choices . Some things are worth fighting for . What comes around goes around ! I make my own decisions and i respect it !

Andy Williams - It's The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year

Cats have nine lives and so do i

Its a crappy day , filled with nonsense ....
Awaiting the season of joy , christmas !!!!!
Food !!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOO!!!

SPM fever over

Here is a poem for myself :

Eleven years of walking on cemented floor ,
Never fail to fall,
If i had spent 4000 days in that school,
Can you feel the awesomeness i feel ?
Walking down the road,
Rain or shine , '='
Never can i complete the next line ,
There always something else on my mind .

End of a chapter

I walked into this school being a plump and short-haired student from sk convent jb.there are many times i pondered, what would my future be like after half a decade.It was not easy , handling my expectations . I wanted the best for myself. After 5 years , i left my old self being someone that had a completely different person.Except for the fact that i am still overweight . WEIGHTY ISSUES !.....I thought of leaving school empty-handed just satisfied that i stayed that long enough to graduate ! It didn't matter....i didnt do that ! it was something that triggered me ..... i didnt graduate in peace .....i graduated meeting people from all walks of life...people confiding me...people showing me how things are done... seeking perfection...some trusting their choices .....it was as though i was defying gravity ! something unexpected and impossible ! it created thoughts , feelings, emotions , challenges, hopes , experiences , dreams , and care for all beings ! it was beyond priceless ! Thank you , the one abstract life that brought everything called fate ! it was truly extraordinary ! it gave me confidence , satisfaction , the drive to work , teamwork , and a future awaiting !

Life down the road

Little cloud aged 17 , a mere female student studying in a high expectation school , living a life of innocent pleasures and enjoying herself while others are working their fingers off, loves to blame herself , never been able to find out the problem at all, getting an average of 60 percent for Biology paper, 57 percent for Chemistry , 40 percent for sympathy for Physics , 60 percent out of another ''lucky'' chance for Additional Mathematics , a mere 73 percent for Bahasa Malaysia , a PATHETIC 83 percent for English and a lucky 90 percent for History .I am dying....I want to make myself work hard but i am lying every second to myself .....Leading a life of an almost Secondary school graduate in 8 months with no big deal of myself .....All I hear from myself everyday is tiredness , fatigue , laziness that infest my entire life.....Shut Up , will you stp before you system crashes , will you behave well and study like PMR , NOT LIKE IT BUT BETTER ! yOU ARE REAL pISSED OFF PERSON BECAUSE OF your behaviour ! shut up and please dont lie to yourself anymore .....you are not writing an essay.....will you stop writing .....I want to leave the SPM room with no regrets ! I WANT TO LEAVE THE SPM EXAMINATION ROOM WITH NO REGRET !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!BUCK UP !BUCK UP ! YOU ARE SEVENTEEN NOT SEVEN ANYMORE ! SHUT UP AND STUDY YOUR BOOK NOT FACEBOOK !SOMEONE TAUGHT ME THAT !