Good or bad

To a certain extent,there are many things that i have to make my decisions to let no one get hurt . People give me choices , i make decisions . I can just do it my way , if you get hurt , i am hurt even more . I cant stand looking at them suffer because i did it my way . I have to make some decisions that you dont like but at last we will find peace in that deicisions because i bravely made my stand . These are reality of life , i get stressed up when i think of them getting hurt . If you would think for me and we suffer together , we might even become closer . Very complicated in all but we make each day something great to be accomplished. My teacher once mention to us that i remembered till today thought it didnt happen too long ago was life was about making choices . Some things are worth fighting for . What comes around goes around ! I make my own decisions and i respect it !

Andy Williams - It's The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year

Cats have nine lives and so do i

Its a crappy day , filled with nonsense ....
Awaiting the season of joy , christmas !!!!!
Food !!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOO!!!

SPM fever over

Here is a poem for myself :

Eleven years of walking on cemented floor ,
Never fail to fall,
If i had spent 4000 days in that school,
Can you feel the awesomeness i feel ?
Walking down the road,
Rain or shine , '='
Never can i complete the next line ,
There always something else on my mind .

End of a chapter

I walked into this school being a plump and short-haired student from sk convent jb.there are many times i pondered, what would my future be like after half a decade.It was not easy , handling my expectations . I wanted the best for myself. After 5 years , i left my old self being someone that had a completely different person.Except for the fact that i am still overweight . WEIGHTY ISSUES !.....I thought of leaving school empty-handed just satisfied that i stayed that long enough to graduate ! It didn't matter....i didnt do that ! it was something that triggered me ..... i didnt graduate in peace .....i graduated meeting people from all walks of life...people confiding me...people showing me how things are done... seeking perfection...some trusting their choices .....it was as though i was defying gravity ! something unexpected and impossible ! it created thoughts , feelings, emotions , challenges, hopes , experiences , dreams , and care for all beings ! it was beyond priceless ! Thank you , the one abstract life that brought everything called fate ! it was truly extraordinary ! it gave me confidence , satisfaction , the drive to work , teamwork , and a future awaiting !

Life down the road

Little cloud aged 17 , a mere female student studying in a high expectation school , living a life of innocent pleasures and enjoying herself while others are working their fingers off, loves to blame herself , never been able to find out the problem at all, getting an average of 60 percent for Biology paper, 57 percent for Chemistry , 40 percent for sympathy for Physics , 60 percent out of another ''lucky'' chance for Additional Mathematics , a mere 73 percent for Bahasa Malaysia , a PATHETIC 83 percent for English and a lucky 90 percent for History .I am dying....I want to make myself work hard but i am lying every second to myself .....Leading a life of an almost Secondary school graduate in 8 months with no big deal of myself .....All I hear from myself everyday is tiredness , fatigue , laziness that infest my entire life.....Shut Up , will you stp before you system crashes , will you behave well and study like PMR , NOT LIKE IT BUT BETTER ! yOU ARE REAL pISSED OFF PERSON BECAUSE OF your behaviour ! shut up and please dont lie to yourself anymore .....you are not writing an essay.....will you stop writing .....I want to leave the SPM room with no regrets ! I WANT TO LEAVE THE SPM EXAMINATION ROOM WITH NO REGRET !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!BUCK UP !BUCK UP ! YOU ARE SEVENTEEN NOT SEVEN ANYMORE ! SHUT UP AND STUDY YOUR BOOK NOT FACEBOOK !SOMEONE TAUGHT ME THAT !

Holidays and updates

Hi BLOG ! It's been quite sometime isn't it.Well . i don't know why but i've been quite quite relaxed this few weeks , probably the rip to Jakarta cheered me up somehow.Well , everything seems to be different now. Results in school, not up to standard , life at home sometimes or all the time , pampered .i think that i am a different person know cause along this 3 years , the things that i have learnt are WOW-ER THAN WOW ...yes..sorry for the language back there .I really learnt a lot....when i say a lot it means a lot...it's been hard trying to live up to a certain standard and requires a lot of patience and peseverance . But I believe in myself .....i will give my all towards it and never look back cause i gave my all entirely...a lot people might not know this but in actual I actually someone really gets annoyed easily .....How I wish someone understands ....I don't like to leave a bad impression but seriously i always have high expectations from myself which I know that i can't live with it .Everyday , waking up for the past 10 years ....going to school.......my god ....i remind myself that being a student isn't hard but it isn't easy at all....i feel like leaving school immediately....i mean in actual .....i feel not prepared cause i still feel like i'm not matured to handle real things yet but that is just an act of immaturity i guess....you have got to face the world one day .....how long can you wait ? 10 years , 15 years or 20 years later ....come on you are not that young anymore ......you've got a long way ahead of you and you are still young and healthier than most older people .....you must have the drive .....the drive to pursue what you like ......God gave you an extraordinary life where you face death so close .....you've got to cherish it and prove your worth....i will be cheering you on !!!!!! I WON'T LET GO EVEN A SECOND BECAUSE SPM 2010 .i will prove my worth to you ! cheer.................Dont forget to study