Lonely

Been  almost 3 months in school now.I think I never felt more alone.My close friend starting to show some irritating aspects of her but I still like her.Everyone feels what I feel but no one wants to let her know.I feel so stressed but I know many things keep me going.Drumming and working in gym to match my ideal weight at 53kg.Sometimes I feel so alone as if no one cares but I know Im wrong.Its just the moment.So this random guy in my class I met twice outside school in unexpected places.I thought it was destiny but when I searched my soul,why did I feel so.Did I just want his attention or others attention.I should be my self shouldnt I.I shouldnt posts things just to get likes and get noticed.My good friend adores him but some part of me know its just his good looks and we all dont understand him at all.It just a silent game to wait for each other to confess. I really dont think the compliment or approach to talk and acknowledgement stands for nothing.I cant tell anyone neither will I admit it.Im not such a great person to tell the whole world how i feel cause they dont care.Trust me.I have been vexed for months now ever since he said the word "cute".I always think too much but that gaze cant fool a cat even.All saud and done.Maybe i should stop pursuing and start living really