Please dont take it for granted

It is what I have told myself to do since the beginning of my long holiday.i understand myself well.I cant live properly without a timetable and activities to keep me alive.I am currently facing a crisis whereby i cant seem to get myself to reactivate my initial level of brain activity.Memory storage getting smaller and doing funny things.I meant funny things.Doing crazy things.I cant even remember what happened 2 months ago !