Missing you

Lots of things happened and changed.My view about relationship.Im not really as into it as others.It is an all or nothing.What I know is that I miss you even more.I believe we will meet one day when we are meant to.Please take care and be happy!

Miss you

Its been more than a month since your enlistment,I feel extremely lonely but optimistic because I know you will return one day.This deafening loneliness and all the accumulated troubles I can tell no one.I will wait for your return.I can only look back at the photos and give myself reminder.

Lonely

Been  almost 3 months in school now.I think I never felt more alone.My close friend starting to show some irritating aspects of her but I still like her.Everyone feels what I feel but no one wants to let her know.I feel so stressed but I know many things keep me going.Drumming and working in gym to match my ideal weight at 53kg.Sometimes I feel so alone as if no one cares but I know Im wrong.Its just the moment.So this random guy in my class I met twice outside school in unexpected places.I thought it was destiny but when I searched my soul,why did I feel so.Did I just want his attention or others attention.I should be my self shouldnt I.I shouldnt posts things just to get likes and get noticed.My good friend adores him but some part of me know its just his good looks and we all dont understand him at all.It just a silent game to wait for each other to confess. I really dont think the compliment or approach to talk and acknowledgement stands for nothing.I cant tell anyone neither will I admit it.Im not such a great person to tell the whole world how i feel cause they dont care.Trust me.I have been vexed for months now ever since he said the word "cute".I always think too much but that gaze cant fool a cat even.All saud and done.Maybe i should stop pursuing and start living really

A break to start afresh

It's been about a month plus since school started and I'm trying to get my engine started.Been busy goin for classes and gyming,drumming.Im aiming for firsts and to make everyone who love me proud to be associated with me.Mostly I'm miss EastSea who is in army.I miss your warmth through Instagram,suddenly I felt a very lonely vibe when you left.Its sad but I told myself I will come to you when you are discharged as a better and more capable person.If Earth allows me to meet you in the dozen dreams of you especially on your birthday then I am meant to be.I love you and will be waiting.❤️Alwaysいちも Happy Birthday !

lovers

I had a strong urge to blog this.Now,every girl has fantasy of someone they like.I said like not love.Like can be friend like or love like.I am pretty sure that we all dont admit either one.I thought loving someone was something where you really want their attention.But,no.No matter where you are,you think of them and always wish them to have the best in the world and you guys feel a connection right from the start wihtout realising.Sadly,I have not been in love.It is mutual feelings that count,not one sided.Grwoing up in a controlled environment,I never knew what was making own decisions until few years back,I was never wrong neither was I perfect but I respect the way.What does it like to get unrequited ffelings and those you will never know existed until you combat your fears and reputation.Is it that I need to cast aside my biggest pride to find it? Do I need to put equal effort.Yes,everyone is look concious.We all want to look our best for people we like and those opposite.But the biggest mistake is to lose yourself.I have been blogging for a super long time now.I can see myself growing to who I am.People get shocked not because I chnaged but because I revealed something I have never revealed and I dare not reveal and I may have lied about how I felt truly.

Second family

Ever felt like your friends or classmates were your family.Sure do with these bunch

Sky,Tears and Sea in the East

060806,One of sad days.Its best to know that it has changed someone's life.I know you are doing well and though its still hurts,your dad is watching you from afar dear.Hope you do even better and I hope and pray so